Hapi4EvR1314's Xanga

Saturday, September 05, 2009

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 11:38:47 GMT

I'm happy :)

Monday, August 31, 2009

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 01:34:36 GMT

"out of 10 people, 9 of them will fail the first time they do business...10 out of 10 will fail the first time they love..." I should try doing business instead...

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 07:39:06 GMT

so...what do i do at 4:30 in the morning when my paper is due in 7 hours and i really don't care to do it? i go through my xanga, remembering the past, seeing the people i've lost, missing the great times, regretting the not so great times. I wish i don't have regrets, but i do. and the worst part is, there's nothing i can do about them. the past's the past right? yet...most of them bother me shitless, to this day, so much time have passed. I've been too boring these days to do anything i'd regret, so i only have the memories left. sad. i bore myself. what is going on. i'm so confused with my life. my idea is to run away, which i'm doing in may. gonna hide in hong kong for a while. away from everything. life is just weird. i'm getting older by the day. and worst part is, i feel even older than i already am. sad. too bad i don't feel like i've grown. i'm still the indecisive self i was 8 years ago. i'm in desperate need of a vacation. just want to lie around and do nothing. but that seems to be my entire semester where i'm taking the most bullshit classes only because Bill Gates will pay for it. lameness. hoy ve. this is a depressing post. i'm ending here.

Friday, April 11, 2008

Fri, 11 Apr 2008 15:28:08 GMT

i'm tired...i'm stressed...i'm cracking my acrylic nightguard with my teeth...i hate changes...i hate fake people...i can't get myself to do anything...shit...i'm annoyed...with people who were closest to me...i just want to get away...then maybe my friendships can be saved again...but is it me? sigh...i feel used.

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 00:50:42 GMT

wow...i haven't been on xanga for soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long...nothing much has changed. my xanga still looks like a pool of mustard with dancing totoro's at the bottom.
life...so...i'm still going to school..still working at bloomies....getting older by the day....going to do undergrad for at least another sem...and then optometry school...i think i'm getting tired of ny...ready to get away...maybe back to a suburb? haha...not ohio tho i think. penn? cali? chicago? i don't know. can't decide right now.
i think i've finally gotten my life balanced between bf, school, work and friends...i miss seeing my friends like i did before...but then things change...people get busy, people grow apart...part of life that i've learned to deal with. my lovable bf's good to me...putting up with my lack of time, giving me lots of love, making me happy, etc. we hit our one year. which to me is amazing. i enjoy living with anita....having my own home is totally nice...and i love my cats. they're so cute. panda's sleeping on my bed right now. i wish i was a cat and get to sleep all the time. that'd be so nice.
i miss my family. i was in hk for about a week, for gpa's funeral. i tried to spend time with gma, almost cried when i was saying goodbye to her. i know she loves me...i should call. spent some time with my mom too...i think she misses me. but oh well. i can't get myself to go to hk for a prolonged period of time. and had multiple good laughs with my aunt dinah...she's gonna have a baby soon...i'm gonna be 23 yrs older than the baby....sigh. i must go back...by jan i think. that'd be nice. i hate summer in hk.
i guess all in all...life is good.

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 01:59:20 GMT

I think i am falling apart...

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Wed, 24 Oct 2007 03:13:19 GMT

i am stressed...

bad luck day

Thu, 23 Aug 2007 00:14:43 GMT

...after walking all over gods creation for errands...my bathroom started raining...a valve above my apartment broke and my bathroom flooded with gross water, thank god not sewage water. two towels and a rug were drenched. was gonna go to the laundromat to get those clean so i can put it back by the litter box. of course then i realized my foot was sprained from lord knows what. wtf...sprained FOOT. ya...great..can't hobble anywhere...couldn't going to the laundromat...now there's litter all over the god damn place....can't go to the grocery store either...can't stand...can't do the things i was supposed to today...went in the kitchen...moved a chair...scared panda...and she ran across my good foot with her claws out...now i'm bleeding...used anita's neosporin before realizing it's expired. ya...really really bad luck....i hate life sometimes.

Sunday, August 05, 2007

Sun, 05 Aug 2007 01:29:43 GMT

so...i haven't updated for a long time....i just noticed that it's august already...where did my summer go? sigh. almost time for school....it's gonna be tough to handle...once again. why did i decide to become a physics major....i always get the "you're out of your mind" look...sigh...anywayz....what did i do this summer...

i got a job at bloomingdales....and i love it. free makeup, huge discount...yay! but i swear...every cent that i make probably goes straight back to the store...sigh. business strategies...damn it.

moved in with anita. one of the best things ever. finally have a place call home. but anita's been hiding in queens...so i have the apartment all to myself.

went to jamaica with joe. that was fun. swimming, cliff jumping, scuba diving, sunsets,etc

he and i have just been dealing with the long island to city thing. much easier when he visits me tho. hehe. things are well...roller coaster-ish tho, but i guess that's every other relationship... sad he's going to hawaii for 2 weeks+ without me :(

so...to keep me company during the next 3 weeks...i have my kitties. They're so cute! all they do are fight, eat, sleep, poop, and hide under my bed, sigh. although they do enjoy snuggling up with me. but then they fight on top of me...crazy kitties

whizzy on my lap looking like putty

panda...who's chilling like the queen

whizzy putty again. awwwwwww.

they love my bed a bit too much...sigh

so...it's really been a lazy summer...hanging out...working...dog sitting a bit....chill drinking...i have developed an obsession with sangria...finally...i needed the chillness. one disappointment...i didn't really study for the mcat...i got the the bio section...and just got burnt...really am leaning toward optometry school...so why bother with the mcat...no motivation....but waste of money...bleh. sigh. i hav a month left....i kinda just want to chill before another crazy school year....bleh.

i guess this is a long enough update. i don't want school to start.

btw...i'm going to chicago next weekend. get to see the babies, aunt, brit and meg, and hopefully g clark. so excited! yay. soon i want to take a trip to ohio. if possible. sigh

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Thu, 24 May 2007 18:36:13 GMT

my computer is still gone...but it's supposed to get here soon...really soon i hope. it's so shitty without it.
everything else seem to be working out. I got a job at Bloomingdales, working at the shiseido counter, YAY! i've always wanted to do makeup. hehe. and I'm also moving in with anita in about two weeks and bill gate will pay for my tuition and rent and spending money! what a nice man he is. haha. I'm so excited that i'm gonna have a home soon. and that will also solve joe's silly problem with my current dorm. hehe. no more dorming! :) thank god it's summer. have to buy furniture and stuff tho...that'll be interesting