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Name: Ching Man AKA Erika
Country: United States
State: New York
Metro: New York City
Birthday: 2/19/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: DDR, karaoke, taking road trips, travelling, hanging with the rainbow coalition, shopping, sleeping, speeding, banging on trashcans, drinking, partying, clubbing, woot woot
Expertise: killing my ankle while ddr...oh ya, and procrastinating, making the parental unit mad. being a bitch and driving myself insane, missing the boat, digging myself holes, livin it up in nyc!
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  Erik A kirE 1314
MSN: hapierika1314@hotmail.com
ICQ:  59754086
Member Since:
5/14/2003
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| "out of 10 people, 9 of them will fail the first time they do business...10 out of 10 will fail the first time they love..." I should try doing business instead...
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| so...what do i do at 4:30 in the morning when my paper is due in 7 hours and i really don't care to do it? i go through my xanga, remembering the past, seeing the people i've lost, missing the great times, regretting the not so great times. I wish i don't have regrets, but i do. and the worst part is, there's nothing i can do about them. the past's the past right? yet...most of them bother me shitless, to this day, so much time have passed. I've been too boring these days to do anything i'd regret, so i only have the memories left. sad. i bore myself. what is going on. i'm so confused with my life. my idea is to run away, which i'm doing in may. gonna hide in hong kong for a while. away from everything. life is just weird. i'm getting older by the day. and worst part is, i feel even older than i already am. sad. too bad i don't feel like i've grown. i'm still the indecisive self i was 8 years ago. i'm in desperate need of a vacation. just want to lie around and do nothing. but that seems to be my entire semester where i'm taking the most bullshit classes only because Bill Gates will pay for it. lameness. hoy ve. this is a depressing post. i'm ending here.
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| i'm tired...i'm stressed...i'm cracking my acrylic nightguard with my teeth...i hate changes...i hate fake people...i can't get myself to do anything...shit...i'm annoyed...with people who were closest to me...i just want to get away...then maybe my friendships can be saved again...but is it me? sigh...i feel used.
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| wow...i haven't been on xanga for soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long...nothing much has changed. my xanga still looks like a pool of mustard with dancing totoro's at the bottom.
life...so...i'm still going to school..still working at bloomies....getting older by the day....going to do undergrad for at least another sem...and then optometry school...i think i'm getting tired of ny...ready to get away...maybe back to a suburb? haha...not ohio tho i think. penn? cali? chicago? i don't know. can't decide right now.
i think i've finally gotten my life balanced between bf, school, work and friends...i miss seeing my friends like i did before...but then things change...people get busy, people grow apart...part of life that i've learned to deal with. my lovable bf's good to me...putting up with my lack of time, giving me lots of love, making me happy, etc. we hit our one year. which to me is amazing. i enjoy living with anita....having my own home is totally nice...and i love my cats. they're so cute. panda's sleeping on my bed right now. i wish i was a cat and get to sleep all the time. that'd be so nice.
i miss my family. i was in hk for about a week, for gpa's funeral. i tried to spend time with gma, almost cried when i was saying goodbye to her. i know she loves me...i should call. spent some time with my mom too...i think she misses me. but oh well. i can't get myself to go to hk for a prolonged period of time. and had multiple good laughs with my aunt dinah...she's gonna have a baby soon...i'm gonna be 23 yrs older than the baby....sigh. i must go back...by jan i think. that'd be nice. i hate summer in hk.
i guess all in all...life is good.
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